28 Décembre 2011
DAY ONE


 Je suis une menteuse.
 
Je crois que c'est pour ça que j'ai toujours été attiré par des métiers comme actrice, scénariste, publicitaire, écrivain. Être humain.
Toutes mes réalités sont des mensonges, car ma réalité n'est qu'un jeu. Ma vie est un mauvais sitcom, alors j'ai décidé de la réécrire. Avec mes dialogues, mes péripéties, mes Season Finale.
My game, my rules.


Écrivain... C'est juste un mot, mais c'est comme un ami. Je crois qu'il a toujours été là, enfouie dans mon coeur d'enfant rêveur. Au départ c'était « raconteuse d'histoire ». Finalement, c'est assez proche de « menteuse ». Finalement, j'ai peut être réussis... Si seulement j'avais encore des mots.
Mais c'est le néant à l'intérieur, et je ne sais pas comment écrire ça. C'est la page blanche, le trou noir. Black out.
Où sont passés tous les mots qui vivaient en moi ? Les personnages, les intrigues, les premiers chapitres, les rebondissements, les dialogues, les dernières phrases ?


Va savoir pourquoi je suis encore habillée à trois heures du matin... Pourquoi je suis pas en train d'écrire le prochain best-seller, pourquoi je sais plus raconter d'histoire... Je ne pensais pas être un jour à court de mot. Pas si tôt.

Vide.

Je n'ai plus que des bribes de récits que je tente vainement de coudre les uns aux autres.
Combler le blanc.
Tant pis si ça n'a pas de sens, si ça n'a pas de fond, si ça n'a pas de forme.


Tu vois ? Même à mes débuts, j'suis une écrivain ratée. Tu trouves pas que ça ressemble au boulot de Frankestein ce bordel ? Tant pis...
Ma plume/mon clavier est à sec.
Mon cerveau aussi.



Je suis une névrosée.


De la pire espèce. Du genre à se créer des problêmes pour pouvoir en parler, pour pouvoir écrire. Du genre à manipuler juste pour le plaisir de mentir et de se sentir lucide. Du genre à bouffer que des chocapics.
Tu sais ta voisine ? Celle qui écoute la BO de La liste de Schindler à trois heures du mat', et quand c'est pas du J.Williams, c'est du Tchaïkovsky. Celle qui, quand tu la croises sur le pallier, te murmure un « bonjour » inaudible à cause de l'énorme casque qu'elle s'est gréffée sur les oreilles. Et ben, cette voisine, c'est moi.
Creepy, isn't it ?


Ouaip. J'suis la fille bizarre dont tu riais au collège, que tu évitais au lycée, et que tu ne remarques même plus à la fac. Tant pis...


J'ai décidé de te dire la vérité, ma vérité. Enfin presque...
Comme je suis vide et pleine de maux, j'vais juste raconter le néant de mes journées, le regard des autres, les livres, ce que je vois dans le miroir, les nuits blanches, la pluie sur Lyon, les musiques, les névroses et les chocapics, les mensonges, les bribes d'histoires, les films, Frankestein, les jours noirs, les voisins et les collocataires, tout ce qui est vrai et tout ce qui ne l'est pas.



La vérité, toute la vérité, rien que la vérité. Amen.


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Vendredi 30 décembre 2011 à 19:20

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Par walou le Samedi 31 décembre 2011 à 12:39
Amie future écrivain avortée dans l'oeuf !
Oui , je jouais à Worms , mais sur PS1 ! Et Le cœur a ses raisons ... plus qu'une série , un MYTHE ! ( Tout comme Naheulbeuk , Rrrr & La Cité d'la Peur d'ailleurs) :p

Je prends ma cape , mon joli chapeau ! Et je commente ! Pleine de dignit-

NYAN NYAN NYAN NYAN NYAN NYAN !

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